Apologies but I've been experiencing blog-clog lately. It doesn't mean I have nothing to say - unfortunately, I'm rarely at a loss for topics to rant and expand on - it means that other forces have kept me from posting. For the past few days, it was a dangerous mix of oppressive heat and an unscheduled depression. Both situations are entirely organic but make me simply want to lie down with my mouth open, like a dog or a crocodile.
Despite this urge, it's a better plan to keep my body moving lest I "sink into the oozy tarpits of Hell", to borrow a phrase from my dramatic 7th grade youth.
And so, to fight the Demons, I went running. Then, I groomed and rode a horse until we were both sweaty, filthy and starving. Then, I rode my bike to some bluegrass/ beer fest to meet with friends. Then, I rode my bike around the city some more. Then, I did yoga and watched "Groundhog Day". Then, I watched it again with director's comments "ON" which only exacerbated my my Harold Ramis crush. Next day, same thing: Jogging, horse time, frantic weed pulling in my garden followed by dinner/ice cream with a friend in the Highlands. This schedule seemed to work. Today, I awoke and feel clear headed and content. Just in time too, as I am leaving for San Francisco in a few hours.
It might just be a matter of racing ahead of the black cloud. Not sure but it's the only plan I've got.
4 comments:
I love the phrase "unscheduled depression" - it is so true since most of the time it sneaks up behind you and bites you on the ass. But, you did all of the right things to get out of it - and I bet they took an inhuman amount of effort.
And, I wouldn't worry about the black cloud. You worked too hard to get your balance back to worry about it coming back. :)
You did an awesome job of taking care of yourself - not to mention the horse - and rise above the oozy pits of hell, or whatever that phrase was.
Depression sneaks up on me in such a way that I don't realize I'm in it so bravo on the self awareness front too.
You gotta love the wisdom that comes with time.
glad to hear you kept busy, heather. i know that usually works for me. i find when i just sit around it only gets worse. hope you enjoy san fran. :)
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