Thursday, April 09, 2009

Circling Back

Though I'm technically unemployed, I've been working on a project that has kept me busy these last few days. (Tuesday I was at my desk at 5:30 a.m.) My phone still rings with project-related inquiries but today is really the first real day I've felt the quiet stillness of unemployment; the timing couldn't be better.

It's giving me a chance to do some laundry, run some errands and pack for tomorrow's trip to San Francisco, a magical place that still defines a huge part of me. My last visit was six months ago, a work-related trip, and it didn't go very well. Emotionally, I was kind of a mess and it ended with me having a meltdown in the Denver Airport parking garage. I'm sure somebody somewhere got a full view on a security camera but otherwise, I was totally alone. I kept hearing a line from the classic, "Planes, Trains & Automobiles": "You're going the wrong way!" So true.

After unpacking, I resolved to dig deeper into myself, into my Colorado life, my spiritual life and get the fuck over myself; I'm proud to report that something is working. Not sure if it is the church-going, the running, the singing or some new friendships but I feel about 8 gazillion times better. Much less agonizing over ridiculous expectations in my head. Lord, what a waste of time.

Anyhoo, I'm really looking forward to this trip to the Bay Area - a trip planned on my own dime, with my own agenda, and with no involvement of a multi-national corporation. It's about time.

(Update on Curious Hobo.)

9 comments:

Howard said...

Cam & I are going the beginning of June. Can't wait!

ClizBiz said...

Oooh! Where are you staying? Have you been there before? Have fun! Wear layers!

rosalicious said...

SF is my favorite city in all of the US of A.

Have a great trip, ClizzyBiz!

ClizBiz said...

Thanks, Rosalicious! Nice to feel some love from my Mile-Hi home.

Howard said...

We are staying at The Spaulding.

fyrchk said...

Could you wave to Sausalito and Mill Valley for me? Or even just the Rainbow Tunnel? Those are my old stomping grounds.

ClizBiz said...

Fyrchk: I will not only wave, I will also be going through the Rainbow Tunnel and staying in The Saus for 2 days.

Fang Bastardson said...

I don't get the big deal about San Francisco. Too many people in not enough space. Untenable.

Maybe I'll see you there when I'm in town on Monday.

Heidi's heart said...

Hooray, Heather! Always inspiring to hear that someone is happy.